The last few months of my life have been utter hell. I’ve lost myself in this transition and can’t get on the right path. I have lost a lot of people in the last five months. Too many to name, death, break ups, best friends. This kind of change for one person, any person is too much. I’ve lost my “persons” I can’t talk and confide in anymore. I keep all emotions inside and then let them out all at once. I wish there was a way to figure it all out. I know life isn’t easy. But how bout a fucking break. I live day to day wondering how it’s going to be, I worry. I am a worrier, and this I know. Thanksgiving this year was a total joke. My families sad excuse to pull each on in and sit by the table for ten minutes was an epic fail. There’s no more family left in my life. The only thing that connects all of us is DNA. I’m the odd one out. Not matter what I say or do.. it’s different. I’m fine with different. Apparently no one else in my family is. I just need that filter, the human filter. I can’t take too much more of this I’ve come to find out.
